Surviving Depression

Posted in Uncategorized on April 28, 2016 by Saliva Vic

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Depression is a side effect of life
You can’t understand it
Until you can not stand your own presence
In an empty room.
You feel like someone else deserved your life
And not you
And you’d kill to be someone else
To be no one else.

It’s when everything
Seems to be exhausting you.
No matter how much sleep you get
Or how much coffee you drink
Or how long you lie down,
Something inside you
Seems to have given up
And you feel your soul is tired.

It isn’t always at 3am
Sometimes it hits you at 3pm
When you are with your friends
And you are halfway through a laugh.
On some days
You feel like you have been to hell
Met Satan
And given your soul away.

It’s like drowning
Except
You can see everyone else around you breathing.
There is no greater battle
Thank the fight…

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Jeremy’s Julz

Posted in Misadventures, Women on November 17, 2015 by Saliva Vic

You make me feel like a little girl, what do you do to me – Erykah Badu

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I love the way when I told you you’re beautiful you would deny it yet smile so hard you would cover your face.

I love the way we would always get kicked out of Mwenda’s on Monday nights but we always found another spot.

I love the way when the dark days came we helped each other reach out to the light.

I love the way you left me voice notes on the WhatsApp. You’re the only one who ever did.

I love the way we jumped over puddles & sipped gin in the ATM booth the last time we hang out.

I’ll miss all that.

This will sound selfish Julz but who am I gonna go to Mwenda’s with? Who am I supposed to turn to now when it gets dark? But still, I am happy that you’re now with the love of your life Wy, dancing with the angels. You were, no, you are the love of my life & no one will ever replace you.

Forever Jeremy’s Julz. I love you. Till we meet again.

#ootd #cropattack #print #1skirt2ways

Posted in Uncategorized on October 6, 2014 by Saliva Vic

She killt it!

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Hello Friday!.. this week has pretty much just flown by. What happened to Wednesday and Thursday??Sigh*…ANYWAAAY,we had a typhoon pass through here in Seoul and I feared it was a harbinger of some milder weather but today the sun was out bright and hot!..pretty extreme weather for end of September but no complaints here. The hot weather gave me a chance to put on some summer wear. After my last crop top post, I  got a “croptop itch” and dug out some crops from the closet. This two-piece print crop and skirt suit is what I wore this lovely Friday. The print is fab yes but what’s brilliant about it is that is cost $5 from Ross. No, I dint miss a 0..it was 5 bucks!..the entire thing! Now that’s a bargain!.I paired it with these orange strappy heels and my salmon clutch. I also tried pairing it with this…

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Ryner Shivisi. A Beautiful Name For A Beautiful Person

Posted in Alkahol, Hip Hop, Music, Women on February 12, 2014 by Saliva Vic

The time is ours to take so let’s take it – Jhene Aiko

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When we first met your smile won me over….

Then that laugh & realness made me feel the luckiest…you were a four leaf clover….

You knew me so well, got me a beer mug for my born day….

I drank vodka from it straight no chaser on your gone day…..

I hate that I didn’t stay in touch like I had no hands….

I planned to, but God laughs when we make plans….

Now…You’re with others like you…Angels…

The only reason I believe in heaven & all these other fables….

Is coz you can’t be anywhere else but heaven…the closest thing to perfect…from deep within….

Till I see you again…Thank you Ryner…for making an odd person like me feel like I could fit in….

I play this as I think of you. I’ll never forget you babe.

 

Pamoja!!!!!

 

 

 

Kenya At 50 : I Only Celebrate The Music

Posted in Alkahol, Hip Hop, Music, Music Reviews, Women on December 5, 2013 by Saliva Vic

Me niko nje/ me na ko-ko-ko-ko-kopa finje! – Toshi of Nannoma

This year on the 12th of Drinkcember my beautiful land, the 254 turns 50 years old. It’s been 50 years since the Brits said, “Have it! Govern yourselves.” It’s been 50 years of the 254 progressing then regressing at the same damn time. It’s been 50 years of the economy being fucked the fuck up while mathrees got free wi-fi. The only thing I will be celebrating this year is the music.

Kenyan music like all music globally swims in a pool of mediocrity courtesy of a bunch of non-talented fucks who get all the airplay because humanity is stupid & has no taste! However, there are artists who won’t settle for less than the best & I salute them today. So. Without further nonsense. Let me do this.

ERIC WAINAINA

While lesser artists like Bamboo left the 254 to go to the States, Eric Wainaina came back from Berklee to build what he & his former group Five Alive had started which was making incredible music! Eric is one of those artists who doesn’t know how to write bad songs. His albums just get better with the best being the latest “Love + Protest”. Dude has mastered the art of being conscious without sounding self righteous & when he writes even about love it’s definitely something you can relate to! Like this “Mariana” song that me & my ex cried to at Blankets & Wine because truth.

SAUTI SOL

Kenya’s first boy band. But a boy band with soul. I remember watching these kids before the fame, singing there asses off at Alliance Francaise & I knew they would be taking over the 254. My favorite album remains their first “Mwanzo” which is such a feel good album if you listen to it & get angry at the world, you have no soul. My favorite record has to be “Blue Uniform” which reminds me of the Moi days when we would be harassed by cops when heading to Jay Kay’s! Wololo!

DELA

The first time I listened to Dela she was talking & I remember thinking to myself that she had a sexy voice. Then a few weeks later I bought her first album, Paukwa & she blew my mind. This girl is amazingly talented & an incredible performer. She is an artist you pay to watch on stage & get more than your money’s worth. My favorite record is her collabo with Sauti Sol that must be played at my wedding, Mama Papa.

UKOO FLANI MAU MAU

Rap music is garbage. Ok. Not always. It was dope in the 90s but has kept sinking as the years progressed. Kenyan rap is no different. However this group of Kenyan rappers gave us Kalamashaka, Mashifta, Wakamba Wawili, Wenyeji & the most famous Juliani. My favorite album from these dudes has to be Kilio Cha Haki which is a wonderfully written story about life in the slum. My favorite jam doe has to be what I think should be the anthem of Kenya at 50, Angalia Saa.

DAN “CHIZI” ACEDA

This dude calls himself the Prince of Benga. That’s a huge title akin to Weezy’s “Best Rapper Alive” which is a fallacy. But Dan has lived up to the hype. His latest album , “Made In Kenya” is a testament to this. He has a way of putting soul into benga & making you feel like you’re listening to Okatch Biggy & Raphael Saddiq at the same damn time. My favorite jam has to be “An E Yo” which is dholuo for “I’m on the way”. Love it!

MUTHONI DQ

What can I say about her? Rapper, Singer, Drummer, Original Bauss Lady, Fashionista! Muthoni breaks all the rules. She doesn’t follow trends & refuses to be pigeon holed. Her music will make you angry, happy, sad at the same damn time.  Her album “The Human Condition” remains a favorite but I really, really like her new shit! Like this Nairobian anthem that’s so real you laugh when you think of how the lyrics describes your life in Nairobi!

JUST A BAND

This is my favorite band in Africa! They only come second to Arctic Monkeys when I think globally! These guys are the kings of original. Watching them live is electrifying & listening to their albums is mind blowing! I am even afraid to say that “Scratch To Reveal” is my favorite album coz the others, “82” & “Sorry For The Delay” are special to me in their own way. Just A Band’s success should be studied in universities under a course called “Dare To Be Different. Dare To Be Original”. My favorite jam is even hard to pick yo! For the love of EDM I go with “Forever People”.

With that said, honorable mentions to Diana Nduba, Nanjira Sambuli, Lady Karun, Sage, Sara Mitaru & Fena Gitu who still haven’t reached album status but drop incredible music each time they come out! Shout out to Musyoka who is Kenya’s best producer, Wawesh who’s another incredible producer & Dillie who is changing the game right now with his beats! Big up Tedd Josiah for blazing the trail.

Shout out to DJ Adrian who made me love music as a teen watching him turn tables in Westie, Pinye for making me believe you can do anything & DJ John for every kid he gave a shot & made it in this game.

I might not have money in my pockets, water in the crib & electricity to light up the road but what I always have is the music in my head. Thanks guys. Keep making & playing good music.

Pamoja!

MMLP2 – Eminem Album Review

Posted in Alkahol, Hip Hop, Music, Music Reviews, Uncategorized, Women on November 1, 2013 by Saliva Vic

Why be a king  when you can be a god – Eminem

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Needless to say Eminem is pretty much the best rapper outchea after my man Andre 3000. The dude has decided to make a follow up to what is his greatest album, the Marshall Mathers LP with Marshall Mathers LP 2 which I have highly anticipated & prayed it doesn’t disappoint. Without further nonsense let’s go in!

BAD GUY

Marshall is planning to kill someone. I think it’s a chick. But the hook is a girl singing about what must be Eminem hating how bad ass he has been. This beat is so fucking dope! The beauty about Eminem is how well he tells a story. A gift very few rappers possess. Okay, he’s about to kill the chick. No. Wait! This is the sequel to Stan. Matthew the kid bro is killing Eminem. But really this is Em killing himself. This is classic MPD. Stan even makes an appearance on this! The beat switches as Em dies, Marshall beasts at the end explaining how Stan & Matthew are metaphors for his conscience & shit. This is Eminem’s quasi apology for all the hateful lyrics he spit in his early years. I know that feeling. I still hate Frank Ocean’s music. Quotable: Tragic/ potrait of an artist/ tortured/ trapped in his own drawings/ tappin the thoughts blacker & darker than anything imaginable.

PARKING LOT (SKIT)

This sounds like a follow up to the robbery on “Criminal” from MMLP. Not that interesting. Car chase, break down, suicide.

RHYME OR REASON

Oh shit!! I know the sample! The Zombies “Time of the season”. I love this! He says hip hop ain’t dying on his watch! He literally saves hip hop with just one bar! I love that he says that rappers best stay clear of him. Have you ever noticed that no one ever goes for Eminem except for lames like Benzino & Canibus who he slaughtered! Dude may be 40 years old but still has daddy issues! This is a song for people like me who will never grow up! Quotable: I still am a criminal/ 10 year old degenerate grabbing on my genitals/ the last Mathers LP done went diamond this time I predict that this one will go emerald!

SO MUCH BETTER

You know Em has to take a jab at the women. Kim broke the kids heart years ago & the world knows it. Eminem wishes death on a chick who cheated on him with a gang of rappers. This jam has some sick lines like “I’m only driving drunk coz that bitch drove me to drink” see what he did there? and I’ll never say the L word again/ I L/ L/ L/ L/ LESBIAN! ROFLMAO! This is the best song to listen to after you catch your girl cheating! Quotable: I got 99 problems & a bitch ain’t one/ she’s all 99 of em I need a Michelin gun/ I take em all out!

SURVIVAL

This is the one from that video game “Call of Duty” but still. This is Eminem in his battle rapper mode. This to me feels like a response to Kendrick’s “Control” verse. Rap is a constant battle & it’s survival for the fittest. At 40 & with two horrible albums to make up for Marshall goes hard even criticizing his own self ! Dope as fuck! Quotable: Will I survive in this climate or what/ they said I was washed up & got a blood bath/ I’m not a rapper I am an adapter I can adjust/ plus I can just walk up to a mic & buss/ so floors open if you’d like to discuss/ top 5 in this muhfucka & if I don’t make the cut/ like I give a fuck/ I’ma light this bitch up like I’m driving a truck!  Sidebar: The entire third verse is a quotable!

LEGACY FT POLINA

I hate that title coz I hate Subarus. I hate Subarus coz Subaru drivers are assholes. Let’s see if this sucks like it’s name. Oh shit! From jump I love this! It’s about people like us. People who are different. When he says “Why am I so differently wired am I a martian/ what kind of twisted experiment am I involved in/ coz I don’t belong in this world that’s why I’m scoffin at/ authority/ defy it often”! Marshall made a song for the crazy kids, the weird kids, the bullied kids, the special ones! Polina killed it on the hook! I realize now that this album can only be appreciated by people with issues! On the 3rd verse he makes you realize it’s cool to be different, it’s a gift!

ASSHOLE FT SKYLAR GREY

This has to be good! I love Skylar Grey & Alex Da Kid produced this so it can’t suck! Oh snap! I can totally relate. When I started doing my radio show, “The Riot” everyone thought I’m an asshole to the point that I got threats! Then you feel sick inside. Eminem is regretting his earlier work but he still stands by what he said coz it was his opinion! Skylar sings rather mockingly that everybody knows Em is an asshole. Hahaha! Eminem says he will never fall in love & the only women he loves are his daughters! Quotable: Thanks for the support asshole.

By the way. This album is loooooooong! None of the songs are below 5 minutes yo!

BEZERK

This is the first single. This is a jam made for 80s babies. The Beastie Boys sample takes me back to Krush Groove & Beat Street. This is a go nuts & jump around screaming like a white girl type record. The lyrics aren’t amazing but dudes flow is nice plus I love it when Eminem screams on a record. Reminds me of Axl Rose from GNR. With that said, skip!

RAP GOD

Whoa! I thought “Survival” was a response to Kendrick’s “Control” verse, now this is Eminem shitting on all of hip hop! Andre 3K needs to stop sewing clothes & drawing cartoons & come with some heat to burn this dude! This jam is 6 minutes of fucking awesome! 6 minutes Slim Shady you’re on & you killed it on DVLP’s beat! Shout to the Doe Boyz for this beat by the way! Hahhahaaa! Eminem disses using “Lookin Boy” which makes me think of Omarion & Raz B being molested by Chris Stokes. Quotable: I make elevating music/ you make elevator music!

BRAINLESS

Oh Oh. I smell something shady. Slim Shady. This is head nod music. I love the beat. Em raps that “Mama used to say if you had a brain you’d be dangerous”. Ha! This is the angry white kid from 13 years ago. This song isn’t that good now that I have been listening to it for three minutes. I know why. It reminds me of The Eminem Show.

STRONGER THAN I WAS

I sense Eminem is about to be in his feelings again. Oh shit! The beats are epic! Marshall is singing like Drake. Yep! This is a song about heartbreak. Gosh! How many times have I felt like this? Like my last heartbreak, when she left me I felt like death but once I was done crying I felt stronger! The rap part is insanely sick! Everyone who has ever been heartbroken must listen to this song!

MONSTER FT RIHANNA

First off shout out to my future wife, Robyn! Clearly Eminem understands that if he has to make a song for the radio but still keep it real he needs to get Rihanna on it just like he did with “Love The Way You Lie”. Let’s see what’s in store. OH MY GOD! THIS SONG IS FUCKING EPIC! I’m crying for real! Robyn sings “I’m friends with the monster that’s under my bed/ get along with the voices inside of my head/ you trying to save me stop holding your breathe/ you think I’m crazy but that’s not fair!” This is the story of my life! By the way if this song doesn’t go to number 1 worldwide, people suck! I listened to this song three times & I don’t have a quotable. That Rihanna hook, wah!

SO FAR…

Hmmmm…This is a rock classic! Marshall has sampled Life’s Been Good by Joe Walsh yo! You start to sing along then realize Eminem has changed the words! Still this is fucking awesome. I’m sure Rick Rubin is the man behind Eminem sampling these rock classics! This is a jam about the downside of fame! Hahahaaa! Eminem is hilarious! He describes a fan asking for his autograph on a napkin while he’s taking a shit so he wipes his ass with it & says “Todd, You’re the shit”. Geezus! The production on this song is incredible! Quotable: Turned 40 & I still sag!

LOVE GAME FT KENDRICK LAMAR

This is the song all rap fans have waited for. King Kendrick meets God Eminem. Let’s see how it goes. Hahahaha! It’s about a girl he falls in love with but is actually an industry whore! LOL Kendrick is rapping about Sherane cheating on him! Woi! K Dot imitating Sherane says “You should eat it when I’m on my period”. Props Kendrick he tried to murder Eminem & his verse is better than Marshall’s first verse but that third verse Eminem resurrects & buries Kendrick. The storytelling is amazing, Em spits with so much detail you picture the entire scene! Fuck! Best verse ever! Plus I can relate! Quotable: Her voice was hoarser than Tori Spelling’s face! (See what he did there?) Sidebar: Isn’t this the same sample from De La Soul’s “My Brother’s A Basehead”?

HEADLIGHTS FT NATE REUSS

We all love Nate Reuss so I’m sure we’re in store for awesome! Oh shit! This song is about Debbie, Marshall’s mother. Whoa! That hook is gut wrenching, Only Nate could have sang this hook. Eminem is facing his biggest demon, his fucked up relationship with his mom. I never knew his brother Nathan was taken away by social services. This is a huge apology, he even says he no longer performs “Cleaning Out My Closet” at shows & hates it being on the radio. Em still makes jokes in between what is the saddest song on the album. That hook is so eerie doe! CLASSIC!

EVIL TWIN

Oh oh. Slim Shady’s back on this one. This jam is on battle mode! Check out this pun “You done called every woman a slut but you forgot Sarah, Marshall”! BOOM! That’s why he’s a rap god. Dude is clever with his lines unlike these other bums! Eminem is so cocky on this shit. He listens to his old albums so that he can keep up with the competition?  Geezus! He just made me laugh at Heath Ledger’s death! Quotable: Fuck top 5 bitch/ I’m top 4/ that includes Biggie & Pac whore/ and I got an evil twin so who you think that 3rd & 4th spot’s for! 

Evil Twin

Done! Guess what I’m singing. “Guess who’s back/ back again/ Shady’s back/ tell a friend!” Yaaaaaaas! Marshall doesn’t disappoint as he did on his last 2 albums. This is a classic album! This is his best work in years! Plus he has entered the league of rappers who make real people music like Tyler The Creator, Mac Miller, Macklemore, Kendrick Lamar & Earl Sweatshirt. If you like ratchet rap, party music or conscious hip hop this is not for you. This is for anyone that has been fucked by life, been through pain, has fought to be accepted & succeeded at embracing their demons.

Thank you Eminem for bringing back music that makes sense.

Pamoja!!!

Nothing Was The Same – Drake Album Review

Posted in Alkahol, Hip Hop, Music, Music Reviews, Women on September 23, 2013 by Saliva Vic

Mafucka never loved us – Drake

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I have never liked the girl Drake. I kinda fux with So Far Gone but I have always found Drake to be a disappointment like J Cole. Dope on mixtapes but wack on albums. Well, Drake is on his third album & I must say I am shocked! Why? Let’s go in.

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TUSCAN LEATHER

This is the intro. I  love the sample. 40 did his thang. I like his cockiness on this record! This is what J Cole lacks. Hahahaa! “Degenerates but even Ellen loves our shit!”. The beat switches up. Not like Kendrick, the switch is subtle. Oh oh! Dude just said he doesn’t talk to Nicki Minaj & that he’s shopping for a new deal! Whoa! The beat switches up again! 40 is on some crazy shit. This intro is long. Sounds like an outro but it’s dope!

FURTHEST THING 

I already love this from the first four bars! The hook is even iller! “Furthest thing from perfect like everyone I know”. He’s singing on this & it reminds me of one of the reasons I like Drake. When he sings, he fucking sings! Oh oh! The beat switches up to some vintage Just Blaze shit & the kid raps! I wish he would have rapped longer on this beat! DOPE!

STARTED FROM THE BOTTOM

Of course one of my favorite jams of 2013. I love that he kept it real on this. Drake didn’t come from the streets but he’s been working since he was a kid, shooting Degrassi & then as a rapper. While Big Sean stays humble about the come up, Drake stays cocky. This is why Drake will be a king, humility is cool for the fans but in rap the bad guy always wins. DOPE!

WU-TANG FOREVER 

This has to be one of 40’s best beats ever! I like the “It’s Yours” sample. Drake is talmbout a dendai who let him own the vagina! In the second verse his tone changes. Reminds me of this girl I knew called Jackee. He throws a subaru at Breezy, “I just like the rush when you see your enemy somewhere in the club & you realize that he’s not in a position to reciprocate yo energy”. LMAO!

OWN IT 

It picks up from Wu-Tang Forever. He’s singing. Whoa! I love this! The lyrics bana! “Next time we fuck, I don’t wanna fuck I wanna make love/ Next time we talk I don’t wanna just talk I wanna trust/ Next time I stand tall I wanna stand tall for you/ Next time I spend I want it all to be for you!” This makes me think of Renee. I like this album. Music is supposed to make you feel & I’m catching feelings maaaad you guy! Dude spits at the end about niggaz talking more than bitches. Must be talking about Lil Wayne.

WORST BEHAVIOUR 

Oh oh! This song was written for me. Drake is bitching about how I never loved his shit but now he’s on top! “They used to never wanna hear us! Remember? Mafucka!” This is such a turn up record yo! He just stays repeating, “Mafucka never loved us”. I love it. He makes another Wu-Tang Clan reference “Bitch you better have my money like ODB!” Oh oh! He’s quoting Ma$e’s verse from Mo Money Mo Problems! 

FROM TIME FT JHENE AIKO 

This is the obligatory jam for the bitches that every rap album must have! Jhene is killing it! This reminds me of Wanjeri & Nana. The selfish decisions you regret later. The kid raps on this one. I think as much as I relate to this jam, it’s a very forgettable record. Is that his dad vibing at the end? I love how personal this song is, I have never heard Drizzy talk about his pops before this.

COME ON WE’RE GOING HOME FT MAJID JORDAN 

The song that Rihanna made famous through her tweets. I love this jam & it sounds better on the album. Drizzy is always at his best when he sings. This is the way you chipo a dendai, by making her feel that she’s doing you a favour while kissing her ass & making her feel like a princess. DOPE!

CONNECT 

I love this from jump! The beat is so dope! I think 40 should get grammy for Producer of the year! This is sick! Drizzy is talmbout hooking up with a dendai he connects with. The line about letting her run over his feelings reminds me of Sheila. The line about “you can be whoever you want even yourself” reminds me of Yvonne. The kid raps at the end about his Degrassi days going to connect with a dendai. Reminds me of Angela! This album should be called “Mafeelings” coz I’m catching mad feelings listening.

THE LANGUAGE 

Drake kicks off saying “Yo! Yo!” like Schoolboy Q! Oh oh! Shots fired at Kendrick from jump, “I don’t know why they be lyin/ but yo shit is not that inspirin!” then he goes in on Breezy talmbout he should come get his girl coz she’s getting too attached. Funny thing is that Rihanna tweeted lines from this jam! Drake just shut down K Dot’s “Control” verse with the same flow he dropped on Migos’ Versace. Birdman is at the end. The only YMCMB appearance in this entire album. Teren Teren.

305 TO MY CITY

This sounds like Beyonce’s Bow Down. It’s dope! Drake raps to a stripper hustling to make her day pay from tips. This jam however crosses over to any dendai outchea getting paper. At some point I think he’s talking about Maliah or Rihanna. Oh well. This reminds me of my girls who’ve worked hard & are getting paper: Mo, Corine, Amina, Gracey, Adi & Fido. Wametoka mbali far! Quotable : “Yo mama used to live in church on Sundays/ you just go to Liv after church on Sunday.”

TOO MUCH FT SAMPAH

This dude Sampah is dope! He sounds like The Weeknd & Life Jennings had an illegitimate child bana! 40 loops the hook through the verse! Sick! Might be the best song on the album yo! Drake’s rapping about a girl telling him not to worry about being the best out! This song reminds me of Wangui. Love it though I can’t quote one bar.

POUND CAKE/ PARIS MORTON MUSIC FT JAY Z 

This has been produced by Boy 1da dolo! No 40 on this one? Yo! Drake is spitting yo!  The hook is a sample of Wu-Tang Clan’s C.R.E.A.M. Whoa! This is the third Wu-Tang reference on this album. Hov sounds good but spits rubbish. LMAO at the bit where he says everyone made millions from Dame to Cam but Beanie Siegel won’t tell you coz of feelings. The beat switches to this incredible bit where Drake just talks about what he feels & thinks, He’s giving props to Paris Morton for holding him down. This is the best & shortest song on the album!

The remaining three tracks are bonus joints that I don’t care about. This is an INCREDIBLE album yo! Drake has done what I hope one day J Cole will do, come out & declare yourself as the king & sound like it! Drake’s rap on this is IDGAF, honest & real. I like that he made such a personal album talking about his past & his folks coz it evokes emotions in me.

I rank this alongside my favorite albums this year, Earl Sweatshirt’s Doris, Mac Miller’s Watching Movies With The Sound Off, Tyler The Creator’s Wolf, London Grammar’s If You Wait, Rapsody’s She Got Game & Arctic Monkeys’ AM. Well done. Drake is no longer a girl. He is a strong, successful woman!

Pamoja!!!