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Posted in Uncategorized on June 20, 2016 by Saliva Vic

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Love.
It’s not always wine and roses.
Sometimes
It’s blindfolds and handcuffs.
I am drawn to everything wild
And beautiful
And strange
That struggles to bloom
In dark desolate places.
I crave deep intimacy
And i do not mean physically. 
Wrap your dark around me
And pour your soul
Into my mouth,
I want to get drunk on you tonight.
I’m trying to learn
To come up for air
Every so often
Careful not to drown myself
In someone else
But I don’t pick my poison,
My poison picks me.
When I met you
I was afraid to like you.
I liked you
And I was afraid to love you.
I loved you
And now I’m afraid to lose you.
I’m afraid
That I’m just another girl
And this is just another story.
I’m not afraid to love,
I’m afraid of not being loved back.
I feel myself falling
Faster…

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I got you

Posted in Uncategorized on May 31, 2016 by Saliva Vic

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It is those that have been lost
In the darkest of the dark
That seem to always
Be able to find the sun.
Some hide behind smiles
While sadness resides
In their eyes
Don’t be fooled
The saddest people
Leave the least of clues.
I can not save you
Or fix you
I just want to soothe your soul
And love you
On the dark side of the moon
When your heart
Screams in silent anguish
And if you find a safe haven
In the darkest tranquillity
Of my fragile soul-
As long as you stay true
I will never betray you.

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Surviving Depression

Posted in Uncategorized on April 28, 2016 by Saliva Vic

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Depression is a side effect of life
You can’t understand it
Until you can not stand your own presence
In an empty room.
You feel like someone else deserved your life
And not you
And you’d kill to be someone else
To be no one else.

It’s when everything
Seems to be exhausting you.
No matter how much sleep you get
Or how much coffee you drink
Or how long you lie down,
Something inside you
Seems to have given up
And you feel your soul is tired.

It isn’t always at 3am
Sometimes it hits you at 3pm
When you are with your friends
And you are halfway through a laugh.
On some days
You feel like you have been to hell
Met Satan
And given your soul away.

It’s like drowning
Except
You can see everyone else around you breathing.
There is no greater battle
Thank the fight…

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Jeremy’s Julz

Posted in Misadventures, Women on November 17, 2015 by Saliva Vic

You make me feel like a little girl, what do you do to me – Erykah Badu

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I love the way when I told you you’re beautiful you would deny it yet smile so hard you would cover your face.

I love the way we would always get kicked out of Mwenda’s on Monday nights but we always found another spot.

I love the way when the dark days came we helped each other reach out to the light.

I love the way you left me voice notes on the WhatsApp. You’re the only one who ever did.

I love the way we jumped over puddles & sipped gin in the ATM booth the last time we hang out.

I’ll miss all that.

This will sound selfish Julz but who am I gonna go to Mwenda’s with? Who am I supposed to turn to now when it gets dark? But still, I am happy that you’re now with the love of your life Wy, dancing with the angels. You were, no, you are the love of my life & no one will ever replace you.

Forever Jeremy’s Julz. I love you. Till we meet again.

#ootd #cropattack #print #1skirt2ways

Posted in Uncategorized on October 6, 2014 by Saliva Vic

She killt it!

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Hello Friday!.. this week has pretty much just flown by. What happened to Wednesday and Thursday??Sigh*…ANYWAAAY,we had a typhoon pass through here in Seoul and I feared it was a harbinger of some milder weather but today the sun was out bright and hot!..pretty extreme weather for end of September but no complaints here. The hot weather gave me a chance to put on some summer wear. After my last crop top post, I  got a “croptop itch” and dug out some crops from the closet. This two-piece print crop and skirt suit is what I wore this lovely Friday. The print is fab yes but what’s brilliant about it is that is cost $5 from Ross. No, I dint miss a 0..it was 5 bucks!..the entire thing! Now that’s a bargain!.I paired it with these orange strappy heels and my salmon clutch. I also tried pairing it with this…

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Ryner Shivisi. A Beautiful Name For A Beautiful Person

Posted in Alkahol, Hip Hop, Music, Women on February 12, 2014 by Saliva Vic

The time is ours to take so let’s take it – Jhene Aiko

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When we first met your smile won me over….

Then that laugh & realness made me feel the luckiest…you were a four leaf clover….

You knew me so well, got me a beer mug for my born day….

I drank vodka from it straight no chaser on your gone day…..

I hate that I didn’t stay in touch like I had no hands….

I planned to, but God laughs when we make plans….

Now…You’re with others like you…Angels…

The only reason I believe in heaven & all these other fables….

Is coz you can’t be anywhere else but heaven…the closest thing to perfect…from deep within….

Till I see you again…Thank you Ryner…for making an odd person like me feel like I could fit in….

I play this as I think of you. I’ll never forget you babe.

 

Pamoja!!!!!

 

 

 

Kenya At 50 : I Only Celebrate The Music

Posted in Alkahol, Hip Hop, Music, Music Reviews, Women on December 5, 2013 by Saliva Vic

Me niko nje/ me na ko-ko-ko-ko-kopa finje! – Toshi of Nannoma

This year on the 12th of Drinkcember my beautiful land, the 254 turns 50 years old. It’s been 50 years since the Brits said, “Have it! Govern yourselves.” It’s been 50 years of the 254 progressing then regressing at the same damn time. It’s been 50 years of the economy being fucked the fuck up while mathrees got free wi-fi. The only thing I will be celebrating this year is the music.

Kenyan music like all music globally swims in a pool of mediocrity courtesy of a bunch of non-talented fucks who get all the airplay because humanity is stupid & has no taste! However, there are artists who won’t settle for less than the best & I salute them today. So. Without further nonsense. Let me do this.

ERIC WAINAINA

While lesser artists like Bamboo left the 254 to go to the States, Eric Wainaina came back from Berklee to build what he & his former group Five Alive had started which was making incredible music! Eric is one of those artists who doesn’t know how to write bad songs. His albums just get better with the best being the latest “Love + Protest”. Dude has mastered the art of being conscious without sounding self righteous & when he writes even about love it’s definitely something you can relate to! Like this “Mariana” song that me & my ex cried to at Blankets & Wine because truth.

SAUTI SOL

Kenya’s first boy band. But a boy band with soul. I remember watching these kids before the fame, singing there asses off at Alliance Francaise & I knew they would be taking over the 254. My favorite album remains their first “Mwanzo” which is such a feel good album if you listen to it & get angry at the world, you have no soul. My favorite record has to be “Blue Uniform” which reminds me of the Moi days when we would be harassed by cops when heading to Jay Kay’s! Wololo!

DELA

The first time I listened to Dela she was talking & I remember thinking to myself that she had a sexy voice. Then a few weeks later I bought her first album, Paukwa & she blew my mind. This girl is amazingly talented & an incredible performer. She is an artist you pay to watch on stage & get more than your money’s worth. My favorite record is her collabo with Sauti Sol that must be played at my wedding, Mama Papa.

UKOO FLANI MAU MAU

Rap music is garbage. Ok. Not always. It was dope in the 90s but has kept sinking as the years progressed. Kenyan rap is no different. However this group of Kenyan rappers gave us Kalamashaka, Mashifta, Wakamba Wawili, Wenyeji & the most famous Juliani. My favorite album from these dudes has to be Kilio Cha Haki which is a wonderfully written story about life in the slum. My favorite jam doe has to be what I think should be the anthem of Kenya at 50, Angalia Saa.

DAN “CHIZI” ACEDA

This dude calls himself the Prince of Benga. That’s a huge title akin to Weezy’s “Best Rapper Alive” which is a fallacy. But Dan has lived up to the hype. His latest album , “Made In Kenya” is a testament to this. He has a way of putting soul into benga & making you feel like you’re listening to Okatch Biggy & Raphael Saddiq at the same damn time. My favorite jam has to be “An E Yo” which is dholuo for “I’m on the way”. Love it!

MUTHONI DQ

What can I say about her? Rapper, Singer, Drummer, Original Bauss Lady, Fashionista! Muthoni breaks all the rules. She doesn’t follow trends & refuses to be pigeon holed. Her music will make you angry, happy, sad at the same damn time.  Her album “The Human Condition” remains a favorite but I really, really like her new shit! Like this Nairobian anthem that’s so real you laugh when you think of how the lyrics describes your life in Nairobi!

JUST A BAND

This is my favorite band in Africa! They only come second to Arctic Monkeys when I think globally! These guys are the kings of original. Watching them live is electrifying & listening to their albums is mind blowing! I am even afraid to say that “Scratch To Reveal” is my favorite album coz the others, “82” & “Sorry For The Delay” are special to me in their own way. Just A Band’s success should be studied in universities under a course called “Dare To Be Different. Dare To Be Original”. My favorite jam is even hard to pick yo! For the love of EDM I go with “Forever People”.

With that said, honorable mentions to Diana Nduba, Nanjira Sambuli, Lady Karun, Sage, Sara Mitaru & Fena Gitu who still haven’t reached album status but drop incredible music each time they come out! Shout out to Musyoka who is Kenya’s best producer, Wawesh who’s another incredible producer & Dillie who is changing the game right now with his beats! Big up Tedd Josiah for blazing the trail.

Shout out to DJ Adrian who made me love music as a teen watching him turn tables in Westie, Pinye for making me believe you can do anything & DJ John for every kid he gave a shot & made it in this game.

I might not have money in my pockets, water in the crib & electricity to light up the road but what I always have is the music in my head. Thanks guys. Keep making & playing good music.

Pamoja!